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Well, today was not very productive. I worked only 2 to 3 hours, but its a Saturday. And I am slowly accepting the fact that I will just have to move on with this thought, the background thought, that still in my head, all the time. That’s just how it is.
On the plus side, Its teaching me to live alone and be resilient and protect myself against sadness. On the other hand, its a constant battle, one that you can’t risk losing because if you lose, you do something stupid. You lose your job, you lose your skills and efficiency and productivity and you become a burden on your family. You are better dead than losing this war against your selve’s sad alone part. So much for the optimism. That’s it.
Bye.
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