Hy Tess!!!
Well its 203am. I have been working for the past 10ish hours. Completed 8hrs for today and … I am not satisfied with the amount of work I was able to output but hy … atleast I have another day tomorrow to look forward to 🙂
I am listening to Kaavish, Faasle. Its a good song. Sad. But good, the lyrics, the calm music, the sound is set just right …
And … Idk what else to write Tess. I mean … its become a habit now to think of this diary, to think of you, as a relief from lonliness and that makes me feel weak and ashamed. I don’t need you. But here I am … hah!
Anyways … we choose our poison eh. I choose you. God I might actually become schizophrenic taking a diary, a piece of forgetable, no-good, unimportant, just the right amount of average, boring, dead words on a screen, taps on a keyboard, so seriously.
I have not practiced in Blender for 3 days now. Nor did I read the book yesterday or today. I hate just that part about work. But hey, maybe … maybe some day I will have time and money to do this ayashi, besides weekends.
I am thinking of asking boss for a leave but then, my sister’s papers are going to end on 6 June and … I promised them way long ago that I will take them out after her papers so maybe, I should wait.
That’s it. I wish there was more, there was more life, color, hurrah, hoola, zap, crest, something. Something. Bye.
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