152pm
I can’t believe its Friday. Today. Well, until I saw the clock and then it was a moment of relief and worry at the same time. Relief because now I won’t be actively on-duty and can thus suffer from my swollen mouth, and lips, alone. It is hurting since about 48 hours now. Why am I not going to the doctor? Because I went to one in Hafizabad who said it will take 250000RS to fix. I went to CMH Rawalpindi who said it will take 800000RS to fix. And I went to a private clinic in Rawalpindi who repeated what the CMH said, that its a “full mouth rehab” case and would take 800,000RS to fix.
Do I regret not brushing? Ofcourse. If there is any “ibrat ka nishan” you can take away for not brushing, like they have those “smoking causes cancer” image on the ciggaratte packs, one shot of my teeth in a smile can do the same on a toothpaste pack I guess. So yeah, I am ashamed at not brushing, for so long, for not taking care of my teeth.
What now? Wait, I guess. Wait and suffer and either die like this, or work hard enough to someday be able to spend whatever is equivalent to 800,000RS then, corrected for inflation, on my “full mouth rehab”.
210pm
Coming back to the weekend tomorrow, I am worried because the company I work at is growing slowly. I need it to run and its crawling and I have been trying to help as much as I could but it takes time off of my actual work (Marketing) and … I am worried. That’s all. I know I could be asked to work extra because you see, that’s what I have been doing more or less since November. But I am tired. But you see in management, especially in a remote job, you never tell your upper management that you are tired. No, that’s just not acceptable because that is blunt. Any problem that you ever face in a job, always ALWAYS go to the upper management with solutions, and alternatives. That’s how you show you have done your due diligence. If I said I am tired (honestly I am … I literally want to just tell my boss that I won’t be available for a week and go to Hunza or Skardu but … after that week, I won’t have a job lol), then that is blunt, with no alternative. We are a startup. I can’t put more pressure on him who’s already taking a risk by running a startup AND working his usual job. So yeah, that’s what I am worried. Now all I do is try to just take a day off every week, be it Saturday or Sunday. Something is better than nothing.
I wasted 7K … well, the handsfree has gone bad so I am saying it was wasted lol. It is a geniune Audionic handsfree. I bought it from a dealer. Comes with an year’s warranty but … now its gone bad and he won’t replace it. I only said to the dealer that dude, its sweat. He said that constitutes as water and so … its not covered by warranty. So that’s that.
1059pm
Constant mouth pain.
Bye.
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