07:27 am
It’s 0727. I’m feeling very tired this morning. All these memories clouding my head. As much as I try to oppress and pray and hope I’ll never remember who did what .. I’m a human being. Can’t keep them out for much! It’s so torturing and painful.
12:34 Pm
My first class just got over and well, I was labelled a sexist. Which I am. AGAINST MEN🤷♂️😂 …
Here I write against the insensitivity of literate women … I practically started the hashtag to protect women living outside Islamabad’s bubble, being harrassed by men … and today I blurted out how restuarant and food making is a “girly-stuff” that more women than men tend to enjoy, statistically, and yep, sexist. And I apologized too incase I had hurt some sentiments.
Miscommunication can cause a lot of unintentional situations. Alhamdulillah, everything settled out quick and good for me. But when you someday have to make a quick, sudden answer in a nervous situation: Breath. Take your time. It’s better to let the other person wait and say their stuff, you think meanwhile and start with a question, than to just attempt to blurt anything out over what the other person is saying.
Rest of the day was good. I had some positive developments on a side-hustle. Soon I am planning to explore more … areas of interest. Anyways, after fighting with my only (hostel) friend recently … I finally made a new one. Idk if it is like a one-day friendship or something which will last. I hope it does. Whatever.
How are you? Did you pray Jumma?
While in the photocopier’s shop after my first class, I wrote this piece:
“I’m a jerk. I’m so stupid. But you can’t blame me for that though. Because I take the path of empathy every single day. Even if it has driven me crazy now, even if it doesn’t work for me. I don’t sleep now because the whole world is weighing me down, but still every morning, I wake up anew. I am a jerk. I am a stupid. But I won’t blame me now for any of these. Fuck you, or me, or anyone you want and see you tomorrow!”
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