So today I went to class too early. Woke up at 0942. Didn’t remember class starts at 2pm, so I was there in NLE lab at 1000. (NLE lab is quite an extravagant lab in S3H, NUST, where there are like 50 MACs placed for students) About 20 minutes later when there came no other student in NLE to attend the class, I thought something’s wrong. And well, it was. The title says the reason.
Anyways .. so I had to come all the way back to hostel. Only to walk back 4 hours later. I also didn’t bring my laptop with me, so couldn’t possibly have waited in the library. So yeah… Right now it’s 1136. I’ll be walking some more parts of a kilometre back to S3h soon.
21:36
I noted a very peculiar thing in the evening today. I was texting someone and reading in between what I had typed, and I noticed k I shouldn’t say this and this particular (text). This would make the recipient feel bad and thus they might stop contacting me.
Now note that that was something I actually wanted to say too, but it would have made them feel bad. Atleast that’s what I thought.
Now .. guess what I did? I sent it as it is. Well the reader might not understand the importance that this single act had on my whole attitude but believe me, here’s a guy called me, who literally unconsciously, would read texts before sending so the receiver might not feel offended and stop contacting, everytime he would text. That I might not start a fight and lose the person. But today .. as I softly thumped that “send” button with my thumb, I was like “Shh Awais…just shhhhh. Let the goners go. If someone wants to be in your life, you both have got to respect mutually set rules, and not just the rules that they have created only for you. I’m proud of you”. And I sent it.
Very few among you will be able to understand how powerful this made me feel. Alhamdulillah. I am not smiling or laughing or anything … I’m contended with myself. I’m just so so satisfied with my own deeper self. You should try it out too. “To hell with people who don’t let you live the only life you have. I love me now for this completely unconscious decision ❤️
And … I’m looking for someone who can paint/bake/do embroidery/make any kind of art, and is based in NUST. If you read, please gimme a message.
Have a great night people. Bbye.
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