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Nah, let’s get serious for a second.
Haaaaaaaaahhaaaaaahahahaha!!
Sorry. That’s just some sicko.
Anyways, today was fine. I went out again as is usual for the weekends, with the same cousin. I have been thinking, by returning back to this small city, have I pushed myself back from progress? Am I going back to the rut? Slowly, day by day?
The answer most likely is yes. I guess. I don’t really know to be fair because … I am doing what I used to do there in Pindi, here as well. I am working. I am eating and doomscrolling and thinking and talking to myself, worrying and laughing. You know, life. But I am also missing out. On … something.
I guess it is the fundamental part of life to “miss”. A sign of life itself. I am not that much philosophical to be honest, now. Pragmatism is better.
Anways, apart from that, I did not do much. Dad now listens to youtube News and stuff and he does so on loud volume and I abhor it, sorry. I have offered a handsfree a couple of times but, for whatever fair reasons, he does not buy those as well. So, I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I do want to go sit down with the family below but if he’s having news blaring, I just can’t sit. At one particular time I did try to communicate this silently, eating dinner while he was hooked to news, I did not say anything. After I was finished and started to get up, he kind of asked me to stay and I stayed silent, in an effort that he may understand that I did stay for dinner but you were listening to news all the time. But apparently, that did not work. I do not know how to bring up this issue with him anymore so I just eat and stay on the 1st floor.
Besides that, everything is good. As good as can be. Bye.