Have you ever read Mark Manson?
In the very start of his book, he gives picture of a man, lost and disheveled by the light of life. It was too bright for his taste and so, he was blinded, and intentionally so, kept on being blind. I feel like that character lol.
Someone should really write a book on how to live an average life.
Or maybe, it’s already written. Don’t compare. Do be kind. Don’t live in the past or in the future. Strength in unity but also, if a corpo finds a way to fuck you, they will. It is perhaps not difficult to learn how to live an average life. It is perhaps the real deal, the living part of the average life, that proves difficult. Even if the grapes are sour, the human soul in the fox just can’t give up. Betterment, i guess, is in our very dough, mixed and mashed with other objects. In Urdu its called Behtr se behtreen ki koshish. It is indeed in everybody. How noble.
And yet, this is what creates the very foundation of the word “failure”. The “could have been” that leads into a path so dark, a future so foggy, that one intentionally chooses to be blind to it. And then there’s easy entertainment. Educational videos, eh?
I am being too suckup of energy these days because I do remember, not very far away too, days and moments, when I was happy. Minutes where I made peace with the average life. The sitting, tightly strung to jump the highest when the opportunity presents itself, the sitting still, whispering prayers or whatever/whoever you believe in, that sitting silently is the struggle. The day in and day out of a life so average that one may see it and not notice anything worth blinking twice.
Tess … I don’t know what to tell you. Today? Why? I went to the doc. He said come again, because he’s messed up the bridge he was supposed to fill in today. Drove 80kms on the bike I almost love, because I had to. But that’s not important. Work? Usual, making sheets, churning in reports, giving access to this and talking about that. The only time I kinda like work is when I am making social media posts or blog videos but there were none to make today. And yeah, when I find or create a shortcut. I have been trying to automate a process for days now, a process to bill another client’s jobs but the code I have been able to generate, 90% correct, is just fucking up the 10% crucial stuff to make it work. So I am getting a bit frustrated on that.
Its an average life. Tis a good day. Bye.