122pm
Today I woke up around 11am. Took my time getting out of bed because the past few days haven’t been good so I wanted to start slow and intentional. Normally by this time I am halfway through daily job work but today, I haven’t even started it. Controlling is difficult, I opened the mail and some softwares but chose not to act on them right now. I have to go submit the kiddo’s fees and do some groceries. When I come back, it will be around 4pm. Then I will start working. Hopefully then I will actually be busy when I have to stay awake till 1am, my job timing’s from 5pm to 1am.
Otherwise I am okay. Disappointed someone I have been meaning to tell for the last 1 day. Task list is not updated yet. It has grown big and I am scared of opening it but I will get it done before EOD today as well.
941pm
Today was a fucking bad day. One of the days in life where uncertainty of a situation takes a toll on your mental health (short term, immediate mental health). Uncertainty is where will we go after evicting this home? And I blame myself for getting it on us too because if I had been a bit more .. subtle, or submissive, Uncle may not have asked us to evict. I could have requested to stay. But I chose to not request. So yeah, I hate meself.
But then I went to the shop downstairs at this time in the night to have my sister’s drawing notebook and some other stationary items for school. Then coming back, I did not buy snacks for me when she was buying for herself and for the littler kiddo. Though I also said yes to a meeting I should have said no to in the meanwhile but hy, peerogress ok. Look at the bright side.
If we evict, it will most likely be me staying here and the little sister staying in a hostel and everyone else going back home. Let’s see come tomorrow!
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