101pm
Well, this is it no?
I woke up today, at 12pm which is quite early because I slept at like 9am but idk how or why my waking hormones decides to … wake me up. Anyways here I am.
Before sleeping, I was telling mom how I have like so less money in bank which seems “WTF” to me because when compiling payroll for the last 3 months, I realized I had recieved around 500,000 in the last 3 months only. And now I have like 155000 left. Why? Well, here’s the deal.
I sent 150000 to dad for safekeeping in the last month so remove that from 500000 and you have 350000. I still have 155000 left from it so then in the last 3 months, I spent about 145000. I guess, if my math is not wrong but that is still huge. Because last year, the price of a pack of Desi ghee (Olpers) was 1800. That’s when my this job started. Now its 2400. Milk per litre was 150. Now its 210. Petrol weirdly enough was 270/ltr and now its 260/ltr. And also I used some of it, and some from the dad’s money, to give to the dentist.
The good thing is my teeth are good now but here’s the fucking fuckery about them, NO ONE IS NOTICING AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT THEY WOULD LMAO!
Like seriously when I had bad tooth, an inch of gap right in the middle when I smiled (so I had starting smiling less and less intentionally just to spare the viewers the agony of seeing horrible teeth), that’s when I felt very sensitive about them. Now when they are fixed and normal, though temporarily, even my mom noticed it TODAY. That is 5 days AFTER they were fixed. I was like thumbs up, nice job lol. I have to go to the dentist on 20 december to get these 4 fixed, new. They took my teeth size by inserting (shut up) a weird slimy pinking thing in my mouth and asking me to bite it, thereby taking my “bite sample”. First upper bite and then lower. Then they said yeah, come back on 20 December and we’ll get them all sheeny and neeuu. Till then, here’s some fake ones (took hours to put them on), enjoy a good smile!
Thankyou, guys.
I love smiling now lol. Seriously like in the past 4/5 days, I have found my self smiling or laughing at some occasion, quickly thinking “oh teeth, I need to shut up” followed by “oh its okay, I can keep smiling now, teeth ain’t bad looking anymore”. That … feeling of happiness, no, breath of relief, not happiness, just relief, and breath, independence to smile, to laugh and not be awkward about it … I love it. And … then people wonder, why I love my job or why I don’t hate working like everybody else. First of all, I do hate working. But at this position, I can kind of choose what to work on so … I atleast get 50% of the work I like to do, like researching and asking questions and getting solutions. The 50% I don’t like, like managing people or holding people accountable, I am learning and will become better at.
More? Idk. And I wanna buy a bluetooth keyboard. Because .. bluetooth mouse gave me a huge advantage, one I realized only after having it. This keyboard is 1, that clickity clackity thing that I don’t really love. Two its an “accountant’s” keyboard but I don’t like having a separate Numpad. It eats more real estate than its worth using, in my case. But as I discussed above, money’s a bit tight. In this 155K, I have to give 80K on 20 December to the Dentist again and then hopefully I will get my December paycheck for extractions, which would be in January. And in the morning today, I discussed with mom if she and the kids can skip going back home this winter holidays. I obviously can’t go but they need like 10K just for their seats to and from Hafizabad. Then I have to give atleast another 10K (atleast … because that’s mom’s native town so she always has some “best deal” on flea market stuff or for kids or dad to eat etc) for stay. Can’t afford to give 20K to her. I don’t really want to go below 100K AT ALL but I know after Dentist appointment and before my December pay cheque, I will have like 150K-80K=70K max in the bank. So just trying to hold off all purchases until then. Then I have to pay rent and Gas Bill on 15 December too. And this time Electric bill was less, just 5K, because we had no fans … its winter now. But with this electric heater the family is using now, 150 Watts, I am expecting about 40K of bill for December. Last season in Winters in the month we used Electric heater, the bill was 27K. The rates have increased per unit so I am anticipating 40K. But that would be in January 01/02 to pay so … probably from the December pay cheque.
And you know what Tess? I was thinking the other day. Yes, mom and dad are right, If I went to army, I would have been saved from these horrific bills and stuff. But if someone who earn more than 100K in this country has to live in cold in fear of a gas bill, there is some problem with the system making up that bill, not the guy who did not go to the institution with a fixed monthly bill rate. This is like crazy, If I was in Army, I would fucking burn up my house with as many heaters as I wanted and pay a fixed 1200/1500/2000 for gas bill. As a civilian, here I am. Don’t need to explain because kraye k qatilon ka business ab kisko ni pta! Anwar Maqsood rightfully said, Inse Mulk ki hifazit ni hogi, Pakistan ko Plot btao to ye hifazit krlenge. See ya!
335am the next day
Just got free from work. Now gonna plan the weekend. And prepare for demise of the party from my life 🙁
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