Going through some troubling times.

Basically, Dad is looking to buy a tiny plot of agricultural land with his savings, now that we have abandoned the idea of MBBS. But Mom wants him to finish and furnish the house we live in. We moved here in 2016. Its been 9 years and its just a brick and mortar structure, no doors other than the main gate, no windows, no proper plaster etc.

He wants to get that land as an investment in the future. He is not bothered by the house much because he comes only to sleep at times so, does not spend the days here. Mom, on the otherhand being the classic housewife, is bothered by it much. She did not say anything for 9 years because y’know how obedient and overly pious Desi moms can be. But now that he’s using the money he has to get that new piece of land, she is like finish this one first.

And we, kids, get dragged into it. My dad is an okay person, overall. All his goods are diminished in my subjective perspective when I see he was not that good at dealing, constructively, with mom. So I just don’t like that fact. Obviously I respect him for all he’s done for me and then some but, you can’t turn a blind eye to disrespect, can you? And that’s one more reason I don’t want to marry, ever. I’d love to be the guy like my dad but a husband like him? Idk.

Mom …well, she’s my mom. But man the only problem I have with her is she is too emotional but … I guess that’s very innate in all moms. You can’t rule it out of them. Even if she is right, and everyone is supporting her (kids), she’ll start crying outta nowhere (or maybe she knows what’s gonna happen after the kids leave and she is alone with dad … I refuse to think about that). So even if she’s right, everyone is annoyed b/c she gets crying quick.

And she’s right in this case. I mean as much as I’d love to get a new piece of land out there, I guess 9 years is enough wait to give some finishing touches to this structure. God knows it has taken time. I was still in college when we moved into this, our, home.

And now my sister is growing up. She’s making solid arguments and her enthusiasm, at the right place or the wrong, reminds me of how ballistic, right place or the wrong, I used to be lol.

Bye, Tess. Idk what happens but I hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Bye.