0237pm
Mom and the kids are back. So, the privacy is over.
And I am choosing to give away 7000 to avoid wasting 20mins a day + the added stress/responsibility that comes with having to pick my sibling from college and drop her off at home every day at 12pm. It is going to be hot, it is going to be…
0425pm
That sentence was cut midsentence because I had to do groceries with Mom. Total, it cost about 15,000PKR. These were only veggies, fruits and 1Kg chicken. The rest of stuff, ata, dalen, ghee, bills, petrol, fees etc … They are not included. And so I decided to revert the above decision. Also contributing to this decision was the fact that its already July 7. Why should I pay PKR7000 for a month when 7 days are already done? And I can’t talk with that guy to lower his rates because he is from a relatively less affluent family so .. murrawat are a jati he! So now, mom will take the kid to college, and I will pick her up everyday from college back home. At 12pm in July.
And now, I am going to plan the rest of my day. There are crucial items going pending for so long!
0823pm
Still playing games
1021pm
Gave myself a genuine heartfelt pep talk to stop bad thoughts and it worked magic, this time. I guess mood is really subjective, complex things. Sometimes the same thing would do wonders, other times it would not change anything. I miss the human contact I complain about not having.
1045pm
You can guess the frequency of a guy’s visit to McDonalds by the breadth of his thighs, the audacity to wear yoga pants, finally completed by the smugness on his face. I thought I was overconfident!
120am next day
I am back home. Alhamdulillah, I was able to schedule the next week’s post so that’s one (very small task with unfairly large tension associated with it) done.
And I have been keeping this piece of paper on me because this past Saturday, my psychiatrist had me do an exercise (image below). That was the last session. Then I apologized for not being able to continue due to personal reasons (she was telling me money is NOT the solution to problems 🙃⚖)
That’s it. Going to plan tomorrow and then … idk, I don’t feel sleepy. But tomorrow I have to go see an alternative dentist and check their rates. Also, tomorrow I have to get my sister back from college and get her books that needed binding and are at Gulf Stationery Shop. Then I have to make ATLEAST 1 new industry page. I feel like that’s another less-effort-more-tension task but … let’s see tomorrow. Let’s plan tomorrow! Goodnight, comrades 🚩
Weird, eh?
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