Well, today is Eid. Its 618am. 20 mins to Eid prayers. I did not sleep yet, I do declare!
I have been practicing an app I want to learn. And watching the office. And I feel okay to be honest. Ofcourse there’s the regret of being alone on Eid but its countered by something I don’t really know. I am not sad, in the way I was over the past few days. Even though there’s the job stress (everything I do, I feel like its going to be wrong the way I do it), the money stress (I am without a skill that sells and I am far away from being a smooth talking salesman), the alone stress (first Eid after being dumped), the vulnerabilities haven’t brought me down, yet at-least. I tried ordering a pizza through the night but realized I did not have the money so, stopped. Still, not a mood dumper. What happens later is not something I can anticipate. I also planned today, i.e., Eid day! I am working these 3 days because … well, tale for another time if I ever remember to pen that down.
And I saw a post on Reddit saying someone needs 45K to payoff their rent for 3 months. That’s like less than half of what I was paid this month and still, I can’t fucking give it. I wanted to text the person, that give me the landlord’s number and I will verify the case and pay it off but I realized, that I can only spare like 5K from my personal budget. That really dampen the mood but thankfully .. Steve Carrell and the Lahoo-Laib of this world!
Bye.
1015pm
Eid … went fine.
I slept after Eid prayer. And then woke up at like 3pm. Started work. I had to update some data based on the software we use for one of our clients and the guys who usually do it are on Eid leave. The whole thing was done in 4 hours. Then I went to have dinner. Bannu Pulao was closed so I went to McDonalds instead. Had a Wrap, and Regular Coke. Then I smoked. Then I read The Hobbit, last chapter is left Ig. JRR and Bilbo have deaded the dragon, though there’s rarely any hand of Bilbo in it.
And that’s about it Tess. Also called home and spoke to some relatives to wish Eid Mubarik. That’s about it.
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