11.04.24

1234pm
Something’s impacting my state of mind since last night and I need to figure out why before it … forces me to implode, or explode.

So let’s see. The symptoms:

1. I yelled at someone when they did not deserve it Sunday via text.
2. I was unable to fetch the energy to help someone I should have just now.
3. Last now a guest came in, a close one, and I told them straight away to inform before coming to someone’s home as a guest and then proceeded to lock myself in the room till about an hour ago.
4. This is serious. I did not give resources necessary to someone from the family to go visit their old teacher. This is serious.

All of this happened in the last 24 hours or moreso, in the last 18 hours.

What could be the trigger:

1. I went to the party meetup on Saturday night, which went okay.
2. Went to the dialogue forum last night, which went okay as well.
3. Computer! Maybe that’s the trigger. I literally bought this for the largest amount of money I have ever spent in my life from my own pocket. 50 days ago. And now this investement is fucking up. It closes randomly. Here I wrote a log yesterday of what could be the issue, let me copypasta it down below:

03.11.24
– The issue is PC shuts down automatically. It happens especially when I am running RDR2 or DAYS GONE. But yesterday, it also happened in GTA V. Otherwise if I don’t run any game, PC does not shut down, atleast till now.
– Possible issues could be:
– HDD drive is bad due to which PC shuts down when load is put while playing games. All games are saved in my HDD.
– Con of this theory is that I scanned HDD but it showed no error.
– Pro of this theory is that my Event Viewer shows this error like A LOT “\HardDisk\Disk 2 has a bad block”
– I have mainly 2 disks, my Local C which is SSD and this HDD which has 2 partitions, D and E.
– Heat Sink is not setup
– Cons of this theory are that if heat sink is the issue, why am I getting those Disk errors in the above event viewer.
– Pros of this theory are that a few days ago, this issue was happening so much so that my PC won’t start. I fixed it by changing the motherboard. Now it happens only when playing those 2 games, and in yesterday’s case, when playing GTA V. So it only happens when playing heavy games (which incresae the temp).
– PSU issue
– Cons: If this is the issue, why do I get the disk has a bad block error in Event Viewer so much?
– Pros: Issue happens during heavy gaming only and heavy gaming could be causing GPU to demand more power from my extension cord, the unavailability of which may be cauing it to shutdown.

I am guessing this is the case. I hate spending money and now this … ughhhhhhhhhh

I already took it for repair once, and he fixed the motherboard for 1/5th of its origincal price but still, it is fucking up. Last night I ran HDTune to check the Drives and there was no problem with both the drives but the Event Viewer keeps giving me the “harddisk/disk2/block is bad” or sth. I hate that I can’t diagnose it, solve it, have to spend money on it. And idk what to do now. I guess .. atleast a strong 50%, that this is the underlying cause of my unexpected behavioural change. Atleast we know now. Let me do some job stuff, then I will come back to think how to best solve this. Bye!