1046am
Mom’s coming back today from the funeral of the cousin. I will go get her in an hour or less.
And I just woke up. Writing diary in the morning is easier than at the end of work because at the end of work, all you want to do is somehow, drag and convince yourself to plan the next day, close today, mark the habits, and sleep. Its cold, you are tired, diary is not to be written then.
Since I moved the PC to bed to stay away from cold, I have been using it more and more. Plus the electric heater. So this month, I am expecting a bill of 40K. Which is like 1/3rd of my monthly salary but hy, its hopefully only December, January and February. And only this year because next winters, I will either be in home, or in an apartment alone. I really want to move out now because …. well … I am tired of keeping family running to be honest. That’s one more thing which makes me think a thousand times whenever dad or mom ask me to marry. Hell no. Yes I am alone and will be sad and even perhaps unable to enjoy life to the fullest but 1. I will have all the energies I need for my own self. So like, single guy will be able to afford gas, water, electric, internet, and if Lord Viceroy Asim Muneer decides to tax air too, then breath, on his salary. Affording all this for a person sitting in the house? No, sorry, not in this economy. I support mom and dad and the kidlets because it is my responsibility. Family is like the .. friends, you don’t choose. You’ve gotta give them what they needs, as best as you can, but there’s an end in sight. Another 10/20 years. I will be 35/45 and hopefully by then, alone. I will save for myself then, not to spend money on education or give da and ma the best possible healthcare etc. I will get a gun, get its training, go hike and spend my time working towards something people actually use and what makes their life easier, and then one fine sunny day, leave this world. Why bother marrying, and then even going as far as making your own versions of assholes. Why, to me this does not make sense but hy, I am not married. I have seen like 10 years worth of experiences and maybe I am wrong. But what I am pretty certain of is the price of petrol is going up from a buck a litre, not going down ever. Lord Viceroy Asim Muneer needs that 🙂
Anyways, Sunday Morning. Sundayyyyyyyy Morningggggggg. In a closed room with temps running less than 10 degree C in front of a 20Inch or 22Inch PC with hands freezing cold because of typing on keyboard, your truly’s Sunday Morning. Life never gets better than this, can it? And I am not even kidding. I had a dream to be honest, where for some … mins, no hourish, my teeth were broken. The new ones. The upper one was broken 2, and the lower one was broken 1. I was in the hospital. They sent me to a fucking “classroom” where the teacher, also the doc, showed the kids how to fix it and I guess he did not fix it, just … I can’t recall what he did bcs that part of dream is still foggy but .. he did not fix it. So anyways, outside of the dream, I wake up and rub my tongue and oh me fooking god, All the teeth are intact, standing and good to go sir! So … yeah I am happy, I can barely contain that part now. 20th December. I just hope, fingers crossed, nothing goes wrong and I am able to get the implants. I’ve cashed out like 40K already, because I need to give 100K or more there and all in cash and my limit is 50K so I am cashing out money early so on that day, I don’t have any trouble. When I take mom from the bus station, I may go to sit somewhere in sun, if the Sun is shining today, maybe NUST, and take 40K more from out of the bank. That my dear sirs and maams will leave yours truly with 30K for the rest of the month. I will have to give another 20K to the doc to complete the 100K transaction for 3 teeth and manage December with 10K. I hope the electric does not cross 40K or I will be screwed dear ladies and gentlemen. I did the math though, like if I burnt coal, or used gas cylinder, it would have costed me 30K. For one room. This time I am using electric because it is easy, convenient, silent, does not require me to fill the cylinder daily and I can’t buy a bigger one because we live on the 2nd floor so … who the fuck is going to lift it up and down from there, and not the coals because I burnt them for some days and they stank my eyes, running all watery, because you gotta keep the room warm so you gotta let all the smoke in the room which stinks. So … yeah … that’s for you, Asim. And Larry Fink.
Anyways, umm, that’s about it. Man teeth are an expensive people bone!
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