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I haven’t written anything down for the last 7 days ig. This was due to a couple of reasons Tess, one being I have been trying to work more and that obviously takes willpower, a limited asset. The willpower used to maintain this diary was being used there but now that I have (ig) established that particular habit I wanted to establish, to some extent, I can resume this.
Yesterday was new year’s first day. Wednesday, my dudes! 🐸
Today is fine. Just woke up. I feel a bit alone now that all of the family has been gone for like 7 days now. But they will be back by 5th January and the continual noises will resume my annoyance. Mom’s making something in the kitchen and that’s too much noise. The kidlets are shouting fighting amongst themselves in the room right beside mine and that’s too much noise. But atleast the house feels alive.
Yesterday I had a chat with one of the people I work with. We realized how our generation is better at recognizing whether our individual houses are “normal” or not due to the extensive use of internet by us and the youngsters now. Previously kids could not see what other homes would look like and so whatever mom dad said was the final word, until 20/25. Now they start using the internet from 10/12 and … they recognize bullshit when they see it. This must make parenthood very difficult but that’s how it should be. A human needs to be self-accountable. A parent needs to be a superhuman in the sense that you are not just being self-accountable to be a human being, you are doing so to teach it. Kids don’t learn by words. If I sleep till 12pm, no matter how harsh I am on kids, they won’t develop the habit of waking up before the sunrise. The only way is either for them to sleep away from me, with mom who wakes up before the sunrise, or for me to fix my schedule. Kids are free 24/7 and they do what we do. Words? Not so much effective. And in the society where desi moms threaten their crying kids to “shut up or I will hit you even more”, only generational trauma can flow, not how-to-be-a-human!
Anyways … now I am going to do some wireframing. And then will have lunch. And then will do some mails, research, review work and then wireframing again. Wish me luck Tess!
Bye!
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