Hy Tess, Today was fine! And yes, I wrote this on website again. Why? I will be sure to share if I am consistent in it (40 days)
I am listening to a sad hindi song, just feeding and feeling the heartbreak slowly. Weirdly, I guess we like sadness too. The slow one to be honest. I mean we don’t love accidents or crisis, market crashes while trading futures in Solana, no I mean when she or he leaves. Not the 9/11 styles. The forever styles. Things that leave a mark on one person alone. The ones that make you feel, whatever. Just feel, the intensity is sparked by the diminishing radius of impact and so … we feel, and we like it. At times its happiness. Some of us today are happy as clams. That’s a feeling too!
Anyways, materialistically, today was fine. I skated for about an hour in the F9 Skating Rink along with the little kiddo. We then had iftar at Metro, H11. There’s a small cafe right at the back of the mall, inside it. I planned to take her to McDonalds but due to some money constraints, I convinced her to just eat at the cafe. It was fun eitherway. Kids, forget quick huh. Their attention span is usually less than the adults but that’s wrong, let me rephrase that. Adults also have a very less attention span for things that are going good. There must be some sort of syndrome or hypothesis to it, I am not knowledgeable enough to remember that name. But adults forget good times quick and kids forget all times quick. What is it that happens between these two stages, that we learn to let go of existing happiness, seek out more, and yet remember and stay in the pains. Why? Maybe someday science will figure this out. Va-Allah-u-Ilm!
Skating. Then I decided to take another step forward today and to not stay in bed for more than 10 hours in the 24 hours. For the last 2 months since it happened, I spent most of my days in bed. 10 hours is less, I will be honest, but I will try my best. Right now, I am on computer for the last 2 hours. Computer is a step closer to productive things, than mobile. Subjectively speaking, ofcourse, Tess.
And … I am experimenting a bit with social media atm. This is not the right time to say what or how but … lesse. Its not a big thing either. Its just another thing from the last 24 hours. Bye.
Also did like 30 mins of work for myself. That’s the worst, hardest kind of work, more difficult than job, or doing something like groceries and stuff for home or anything. I am exposed and vulnerable while working on myself but hy, khud ni krunga to or kon krega! Bye.
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