0820
I’m using sleep as a coping mechanism. It’s been three days now, I am taking nap at noon even when I can’t sleep. Just Chuck myself into the bed. Ajeeb
Other than that, I’m feeling awesome. Like .. studying properly, getting over people and their mean comments about the breakup, without any psycatrists help, talking back home almost daily, skating and smiling regularly … Feeling awesome.
Whatever. I’m still in bed you know. I’m getting tired of being this lazy guy who does nothing.
1221
Made a word document of suicide note. I might not be able to complete the book this time again but Jitni b likhi gyi, I’ll definately post it out this time. Other than that, made a suicide checklist. Blocked everyone on Instagram who can be remotely related to my relatives or parents.
1925
Slept .. or tried to from 04pm to now. At times checked mobile .. blocked most of the people from SIM and Gmail and whatever. Missed Asr and Maghrib. Idk what is happening but whatever it is is not good. I hope I get out of this. May Allah help me. Bbye
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