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Do it, for just 5 mins. Sometimes that alone is enough. I start the task, the work, and time flies. Suddenly its done. Or more realistically, suddenly, I am stuck but this time closer to the destination. Or I am stuck and I am scared to pick it up so the task is not done, […]

At one point, at one particular point, the love of your life was a tharki in someone’s view. Then slowly you guys understood that .. he was different. After seeing you, he wasn’t gonna see anyone else. He wasn’t gonna try. That’s when you realized him being “different”. The problem is, he isn’t different. I […]

“Breaths in” Today … again someone in class wooed me. It’s hard to confess but it’ll make me bitter to keep this to myself. To avoid anything “accidently” happening to him in far future, I’m going to spill all my negativity here. You are welcome to not read the burnt-story ahead. I wasn’t wearing a […]

While in Pakistan:1. Are you interested in politics?2. Do you actively follow politics?3. Do you attach your emotions with changes in political picture on daily basis? If your answer to 2/3 of these questions is No, then this piece of writing is for you. If you do associate yourself strongly with politics, then I guess […]

In NUST there is always some construction happening somewhere. The workers, petty, illiterate, poor wretches wearing tattered clothes, work, as they are expected to do. But I don’t understand their ‘why’. Money? Nah. Money alone can’t be so powerful to make a donkey of a human being. These people who don’t rebel, are even worse […]

I could write pages and pages for ages and ages and yet, parts of my pain would be written properly. I have no idea of what is it exactly that causes this searing pain. To this vague, uncertain, illogical but existing and very real feeling of uncomfortableness, I name love. This could be very opposite, […]

Do I even belong here? This was a question that shook my mind when I was sitting on the sides of a basketball court, in front of a cafe in NUST too liberal for my taste. Do I even belong with these people I got enrolled with? Some boys running, their footsteps muffled by the […]

Disclaimer: This document is not an indication, plan, suggestion, or intention of self-harm, suicide, or any act against the laws of Pakistan. It is a precautionary measure intended solely for use in the event of any unforeseen accidents or my natural death. The contents of this will are meant to ensure that my wishes regarding […]

11 March 2022 So … Hy. I can see the moon from here. I used to say that you were my moon huh. Looks like I was wrong. Now you are someone else’s moon. Or .. are you? If my moon is the only one dark thing which is illuminated by a borrowed light for […]

Sometime in Fall 2021

Sometime in Fall 2020 I’m sitting on a bus taking us (Edit: this was written when I was involved in an unsuccessful relationship, therefore: us) to go get our vaccination certificates. A girl by my side gave me a pen to write my CNIC and number on this medical receipt. I have had written it […]

Fall 2021 You know what? Don’t say to someone that they should sit straight or look forward or swing their arms more. I am in this deep dark abyss right now because someone used to insist that I should ‘sit straight’. I hate myself for this because my back is like 2 feet and I […]

Fall 2021 Everyone needs to have basic rights. A need to feel safe and a need to feel free. A need to be wanted. A need to belong. A need to connect with people lifelong. A need to find meaning. A need to find love and feel love. A need to be respected when spoken […]

Sometime in Fall 2021 Once when I was coming back to NUST, just a couple of metres outside gate 1, I saw a girl, 16 or 17 years of age, on a donkey cart. She was with her little 3/4-year-old sister… Looking lost, perhaps thinking of where her next meal would come from, her clothes […]

Sometime in Spring 2022 At three in the night as everyone sleeps tightI twist and turn, with rising concern Why can’t I sleep? Where’s the peace I found?Was time not supposed to heal my wound?Was progress not supposed to provide me the happinessPreviously in you that was found How is it that after working till […]

22 February 2022 I wanted to write something bad, so I wrote this. Now I’ll never let you go amiss. I found you causing me a lot of pain and I found you believing people’s mind games. I found you and I made you give up the humanistic urge to wealth, to fame or to […]

March 24 2025: The following is from Fall 2021 and Spring 2022. Its a collection of notes from Google Keep being transported here today. Nights pass and days go byI stumble, suffer, scream & cryBad dreams, Sad dreamsTell the stories I wish were dry Totally fine, wholly goodAnd then suddenly off the hookI try so […]

It’s okay to be self-aware. It’s good to be responsible and to feel responsible. And questioning your actions before you do, and words before you utter is the right thing to do. Indeed it is. But slow. Slow down a clock because these are dangerous things to think about. We are all evil in someone’s […]

Sometime in Fall 2021 I am struggling with my schedule. A friend said today, “It’s alright to sleep till 7am when you’re doing a 9-5 Awais”. And .. really? 8 hours per day + 2 hours commuting to/fro job = 10 hours of day10/day x 30 days / month = 30 PKR300 hours of work […]

07.30.22 کون ہے جو آج طلبگار ِ نیاز و تکریموہی ہر عہد کا جبروت وہی کل کے لئیموہی عیّار گھرانے وہی ، فرزانہ حکیموہی تم ، لائق صد تذکرہء و صد تقویمتم وہی دُشمن ِ احیائے صدا ہو کہ نہیںپسِ زنداں یہ تمہی جلوہ نما ہو کہ نہیں​ تم نے ہر عہد میں نسلوں سے […]

A time will come when people rule, and the state will be dissolved into people’s power. A time will come when there will be no myths surrounding childbirth in far-flung areas of my country. A time will come when few people will not be so greedy as to torture, kill and then smile for media […]

(The speech has been reproduced as it appears in the Chamber’s record. In order to preserve the originality of the speech, no typographical or language improvements have been made to the original text). Mr. Chairman, Members of the Karachi Chamber of Commerce, Ladies and Gentlemen.  It gives me great pleasure, Mr. Chairman, to be here […]

(This was originally penned in 2021) There will always be a demand for stuff that works because it’s just nice to know. But what doesn’t work, won’t it be nicer to hear that for a sec? To know what not to do? Here are the top 10 things in life which you should start trying […]

Sometime in Fall 2021 A man needs a woman and vice versa. The system shown in movies ‘She’s 4/10, ‘She’s 7/10, ‘Oh she’s gotta be a solid 10’, shows men’s clear (learnt) tendency to rate women on the basis of their looks rather than profession, strength, wealth or any other factor. A 40-year-old man can […]