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I’m going home for 24 hours tomorrow. And haha… I’m having a panic attack rn. My mind seems to have a mind of its own. I won’t write the details because then everyone thinks oh it’s attention-seeking. So yeah … it’s not. Bbye
I feel so unworthy of everything I got. Worthless. My life till now has been meaningless. I … am sorry for everything yar. I am sorry for being what I am. I know I hurt a lot and I end up hurting everyone. All I can say is … Sorry. Forgive me if I have done harm to you. Apparently, I am too self-obsessed. I’m not worthy. I just wrote a lot of messages to myself on Whatsapp, none of which are postable. Otherwise, people will think this is just a publicity stunt. Why can’t I be a good person… Whatever. I’m so sorry. Bbye
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It makes me smile. The strength within when I’m in this much pain and end up for a moment thinking of doing something criminally foolish, and then my mind smirks “Nope, ye to ni ho paega boss” and all smiles then. Woah … Is this how people get strong? Just Woah!!!
2031
Well … miracles. That psychiatrist called again. “Unprofessionally!”. Anyways … I’m beginning to like what she proposed. She said I should write negative thoughts on a piece of paper and cut them out there, simultaneously, and then write positive thoughts instead.
Anyways … I’m feeling much better now. Will go eat and then skate! Bbye people. I’ll post the next entry from home. Please pray 😭 but I know I’ll be fine 🤠✅ In Shaa Allah. I’ll be back on Sunday. See ya
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