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I had this weird conversation with myself. Read along if you wanna.
I: you are very strong, do you know that?
It: I need to be strong, look at yourself. Cutting skin and burning your cuts to prove what?
I: Shut up (lightly)
It: And now deying your hair .. and ASH!!!
I: I like it!
It: You are running away from what you were. You think these hair change will make you look more strong!
I: Well, it will ..
It: Look in the mirror dude. You know it will do nothing to your confidence, and two months later your hair are black again.
I: I want to change my hair colour. I will change my hair colour. You just shut up please.
It: Andddd I’m strong huh? I’m just a voice in your head. I wish I was physical, would have taught UUU a lesson!
I: … I’M SORRY OK … YES IT’S A COPING MECHANISM … YES ITS UNHEALTHY … BUT LESS THAN CUTS AND BURNS 🤷♂️, YOU SHOULD APPRECIATE THAT!!!
It: I’m sorry. Boy, you are strong. But please don’t mess your hairs. Go pray Infront of Allah and he’ll ail your pains.
I: I know .. he will .. I just really wanted to try them out you know …
It: I love you man but .. no you weren’t just trying them out … Realize that you were escaping reality. And I’m not against deying hairs either … Just not as a revenge on yourself. Do them when you are graduating. Do them at your marriage or something. Fuckin’ turn yourself blond when you 60 who cares .. but don’t give in to your urges now.
I: I’m gonna have an ice-cream tonight
It: Ice-cream’s good. Get an ice-cream tonight. Get a Cornetto.
I: Yeah alright
It: Alright …I’m switching off.
I: Yeah I’m also reaching my room.
It: (Disappears)
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I am just gonna go to Isha, then dinner, then skate to C1 for a Cornetto. Might do some late at night studying though. I also have to teach a friend some English literature stuff for tomorrow’s paper.
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