1250
Today I had no class. So … obviously I was feeling the need to “do something” and “just fuckin do something awais” in my head. I racked my mind but couldn’t bring myself to do anything. So I just kept laying there in bed till 12pm. Then something sprung me out of it … And 50 minutes later now I’m halfway making a personal blog.
I am getting this strong feeling here, to eliminate the very basic killing question. “Why would anyone want to go to your blog in the first place”???
I know the question. I’ll give the answer. Stay healthy, happy and humble. Love!
1602
So … I just had a talk with a clinical psychologist. And I shared with her what I could, in 10 minutes. That’s the time they give you in free “trials”. More like paywalls.
At the end this happened:
She: I will be waiting for your call the next week, to discuss this further, professionally.
I: Excuse me very much but, I don’t think one should care about rules and regulations when you can do things unprofessionally to save a man’s life. I get plagued with these toxic thoughts every time I wake up, or am slightly free…
She: Are you trying to guilt-trap me by saying to do things unprofessionally…?
I: Are you trying to half-quote me … I said “to do things unprofessionally to save a man’s life”
She: But you said you don’t want any help. You said nothing can convince you anymore.
I: I called. Is this not trying to get help? See my actions, not my words….I called for help.
She: Although I have other clients waiting … I still want to talk to you. Keep speaking.
I: If someone else scheduled for a session first, I will not be the reason for their wait. I don’t want to talk anymore.
She: I hope you take the next session then ….
I: I hope so too. Bbye
She: Bbye
And all I meant by “doing things unprofessionally” was not to book me for a 30 minutes session which will happen 7 days from now. I’m not feeling well now so talk to me now. Or don’t advertise your business. But I guess that’s what you get for free. And … I’m surprised I’m fighting with my psycatrists now 🤦♂️ … Whatever.
1912
…I was recently thinking of learning skateboarding. But now I have decided not to. I’ll rather step up a notch and learn aggressive rollerblading. Wish me luck!
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