Diary of a Senseless Wanderer

It’s not like I won’t get sad again, infact I feel kinda sad right now hehe. I don’t want to go back. This was…

1942…skipped today’s class. Which in detail means, bunked to stay curled in a ball of nothingness on the corner of my bed sobbing like…

1544Is it crazy or what? I am so happy right now and the reason is really weird. I got an appointment with a psychotherapist…

1736Today was busy. More like … life-changing busy but I won’t raise any expectations 😃 Enough to say is that I think .. I…

1500I just came back from a meeting here in S3h, with our Industrial Linkage Officer. I had two new ideas to discuss, and the…

0816…I missed the train. It was a good excuse not to go home but then mom insisted and so, I think I’ve to go.…

I’m gonna post this tomorrow or the day after. But as I write it today, I’m feeling a mixture of emotions buried in me.…

“Customer is always right” is a capitalist lie. If the customer is an asshole, (s)he should’ve treated as such. The minute you “disrespect” a…

I’m enroute to Peshawar on my first ever Faisal movers bus. Once there, I’ve got to cover a differently-abled PMS officer’s special education story…

First time eating in Ramadan. In contrast to my skinny built, I’ve always found the strength to keep all fasts, every Ramadan, starting from…

Whenever I resume the diary of a senseless wanderer again, I’ll add this there. Life is layed out in front of me. And it…

I hate the idea of waiting. Especially if it is for an interview or suchlike. If I have to meet someone who has some…

Hyyyyyyyyyyy This was a busy week…I guess zero YouTube video. I’ll record one this weekend. Anyways. I’m just gonna say it because … I…

Hy Tess. Today was kinda normal … when I was expecting it to go worse … So actually good huh. I had a paper…

Fuck it. Here goes. I miss the memories I had with my ex. There. I WAS SO AFRAID TO ADMIT IT ☠️😂 …ajeeb. I…

تو قادر و عادل ہے مگر تیرے جہاں میںہیں تلخ بہت بندہ مزدور کے اوقات Hy Tess…. Today was .. good. 7/10. I woke…

Hy Tess. What’s up .. nothing much? You are pages. What do you do all day? Wait? I hope you do that 😂 Anyways…

Before I write that Tess, I want to tell you something. Somethings. Fuck it. Here goes. I went to Peshawar today. At faisal movers…

Hy. How are you? I want to tell you something. Well it’s not like I should … maybe this is a mistake but maybe…

Hy Tess … How are you Today .. was good. Right now is very good. It rained and I’m laying in grass looking up…

I had thought of only writing in you every night. But .. I want to destress right now. So here it is Tess. Work…

Hyyyyy … how are you? Long time no see .. how is you … It’s really been a long time hena! Like .. months.…

An Instagram story from @baigandbaigum triggered this .. trail of thoughts. I decided to write an entry for Diary of a senseless wanderer. This…

Aashqi sbr tlb, or tmnna betabDil ka kya rng krun, khoon-e-jigr hone tk! Matric k Urdu Nisab me jin ghzlon ko prh prh k…

University internet was down recently. And I realized how much we are dependent on internet. All lectures for my studies are on MS Teams.…

Songs of the week:Cradles by SuburbanCounting Stars by Simply Three Books of the week1. Negotiations: A reader for writers – Judith Summerfield2. Gilgit Baltistan…

2109Delirious. Delulu. Never gonna happen. Daydreams. What else can one name the soft murmur of simple, very simple, far too simple wishes of a…

I don’t know if I will share it or not. Most probably will at some later date. I feel unhealthy mentally. Exhausted. And I…

How long it’s been .. a month? More I guess. Diary of a senseless wanderer. When I thought of this name, it wasn’t in…

This week was mixed. I had already shifted to Attar but the whole week, I was approached one way or the other by Kashif…

Hy. Morning! It’s quite sometime after I am waking up in the morning again, to the birds in blues that fly around only at…

Hy .. it’s been a long time since we met. Probably not much but .. pretty much more than normal. Certainly not regular as…

1824 I’m going home for 24 hours tomorrow. And haha… I’m having a panic attack rn. My mind seems to have a mind of…

1623 So yeah … Last night I was stupid enough to like order a pizza for myself even though I have had dinner. Now…

2117 … nothing special. An ice-cream, a moonless night, a pair of inline skates and heavenly songs on headphones wrapping my head. What more…

1250 Today I had no class. So … obviously I was feeling the need to “do something” and “just fuckin do something awais” in…

2209 Today was good. In the evening it became best. I went to class early today. But then also left early because nothing was…

2134Well, today was good. Kinda. Because I was mostly busy and thus, had no time for fzool thoughts. But what I just saw like…

2132I made this group on WhatsApp for me. Added both my numbers. From one I pretend to be my friend. From 2nd, I reply…

1908 Well … Thanks man. I really appreciate that. I was in my bed today till 4pm. Then a guy here in hostel texted,…

0820I’m using sleep as a coping mechanism. It’s been three days now, I am taking nap at noon even when I can’t sleep. Just…

2051 I have my last written paper on 22. And that is most difficult one. Theories of mass communication. That teacher has one very…

0925 Sitting in the kybo chairs, I feel so so happy rn. Like just now, there was a daily wage laborer here whom I…

I’m at a better place now than I was a month ago, so I guess this is working. By “this”, I mean a mindful…

Hy Tess, what’s up. How’s life treating you. It’s been a month or two I guess, since the last entry in the diary of…

Today was okayish. I had a minor fight with Huda (fake name obv) but I also had two informal meetings. Other than that, I…

Well, today was okayish until I saw her! Like seriously, it was going well. I had an unexpected meeting with Kashif who by the…

Today was good. As in I woke up late but 30 minutes later, I was at job and that is good, being punctual. I…

So, today was okay. In fact, it was slightly more than okay in the sense that it started with another cold shower! I love…

Today, for the first time, someone close was harassed. The guy is a rich person from our colony. He might like cleanliness and education…

Good things are becoming more frequent and bad things are becoming less and less, both in frequency and intensity. I love this transformation. Today,…

Well, today was good as well. I’m not particularly eager to document my day. I don’t want to write here but, as soon as…

Yesterday I missed out on reviewing, budgeting and planning my day. Now, however, I am back. Tomorrow, I will get up to bathe once…

Yesterday, I again missed writing this. This inconsistent behavior won’t be tolerated, Awais! Consider this a warning buddy boy. The five good things of…

The five good things about today are as follows:1. I did more than the normal amount of time on Figma practice2. I texted Kashif…

Today was okayish. Here are five good things I did today:1. I started my day with a difficult task, and got it thoroughly done2.…

Today was good. As in, I managed to attend class, go to my job in proper items of clothing and work all the way…

Today was good and here are the 5 things I am proud of today:1. Going to library and working there on a Saturday2. Going…

Today was hell of a day man. Here are however 5 things that went good, today:1. I went to the library, twice totalling 5…

Today was fucking shitty because we are fighting. I feel so bad. I feel so fucking bad. Kashif se b aj mulaqat he.

Hy Tess, Today was fine! And yes, I wrote this on website again. Why? I will be sure to share if I am consistent…

1216pmI made another diary and discontinued this one. Too many people who know me in real life know this diary and so … I…

245pmI am a forgetful person Tess. Like right now, after spending an amazing productive weekend, I was feeling irritated in home so I came…

I am feeling extremely angry. Because the NUST HBL bank was lousy as fuck and the fees issue of March 2023 was more than…

The one with the opening There is an opening .. in my teeth. It’s been 10 years, baba khte the beta, brush krlo. Ni…

I just realized that now, I’m more independent than before. I can simply take a job, work, come home and there’s no one to…

These are some of the good things I did today:I went to study circle class even though I had planned not to, earlier in…

Obsidian. ClickUp. Sidekick. Linux OS. Google Suite. Todoist. Notion. Evernote. GTD. Pomodoro. Time Blocks. Atomic Habits. Atomic improvements. Vivaldi. Ye kr ra Hun bkchodi…

Five good things I did today are:1. Intentionally having a nice morning call back home2. Deciding to buy a 2nd lunch (versus saving) because…

Hy Tess. I don’t think I’ll get up today when though one part of me really really wants to go to library. There’s a…

These are the five good things I did today, Tess:1. Even though I did not want to, I studied some academics in the office2.…

Bnana thaTujhe apnaSulana thaRulana thaTeri ankhon me hole seTera hi ghr bsana tha Kmana tha, Urana thaTujhi p sb lutana thaMohabbat g? Fsana thaMuje…

Kabhi jo ankh khulti thiKoi ghm na hota thaRubber vali nayi pencilYhi me khaab prota tha! S3h. NUST. These words will always hold a…

Roz vhan beth k aek lrkaNeeche dekh kuch likhta thaKsi k ane ka manzarJhooti ankhon me bunta thaHsta Khudi, khud ko pagl bna kHsta…

You stop caring. That’s what I realize nowadays as I grow … up! I am NOT growing old :suppressedsmiles Now I send that weird…

Today’s heavy Tess. I am not feeling well since the morning, headache. Something’s pushed me down from the moment I got up from bed.…

Ghr ja rha Hun. Five good things I did today are: 1. Took a risk to not book another indriver, when the first accidentally…

I’ve never been an obedient child. Running away from home, to openly criticize anything I see happening at home that I did not like,…

404amHy Tess! Its early morning but if you think from a normal man’s POV its sleep sleep time for me. I can’t do so…

457pmGot up at 1130amish and started working. Had two calls till now, with coworkers. My mom rescued a cat in the morning apparently, the…

206pm3 hours of Wireframing and prototyping ended just now. I am a bit concerned because I planned to make a new screen this time…

704pmI am happy. Rare. Let the world burn. Hath sekenge hveli k bahr gli me rat 2 bje, dunya jla k. Because I am…

134pmJust came back from a breakfast from outside. Cost: 720PKR. I never thought I would be the one to “choose healthy” but one, it…

257pmI haven’t written anything down for the last 7 days ig. This was due to a couple of reasons Tess, one being I have…

Five good things I i did today are:1. I did not go to the party meeting because I had a fever.2. I ate as…

Five good things I did today are:1. lksfjasdfjweiofjsdljflsjflsdjlsd2. Spent money on a fruit shake3. Said sorry to someone I could have not, and gotten…

Five good things I did today are:1. Udjsuxskdkdifhekosidbsskjs Today, I want to write openly so, if someone needs to stay away from negative writing,…

Again, I won’t advice you to read this. NSFW as well. Here, today, is just an average day. Peaceless night, Dreamless day. Kuch nya…

Hy Tess. I wrote yesterday. And of the day before that as well but both were too dark to post online. Ya in logon…

Yar, copied line he. Once upon a long time ago, dunya bni thi. Acha ni hua, shi bat he. Acha vaqyie ni hua. Five…

Hy Tess. I’m tired. Abhi library se Aya Hun, and the work I went to finish there is still even more .. raita. This…

Hy Tess. It’s me. Here are the five good things I did today: 1. Jfidowisvsoabgsaohsisos2. Staying in library for 6 hours to work on…

Hy Tess, hy. I’m gonna pretend like nothing happened the previous few days and just .. write about today. Backlog burden boht hota he…

Hy Tess. It’s me, Awais. I just returned from the study circle class and it was one of those content-packed class! This fortnight’s topic…

Rector Sab ki trf aj dinner tha. Compulsory. Mtlb hostel me Khana diya hi ni, agr dinner krna he to aj Rector ki trf…

Today started in an abnormal way. Thora late ho gya uthne me. Nowshera Jana tha, for FYP shoot. Anyways, I’m enroute now. Let’s see…

Not good. I think a friend attempted suicide. I texted but no reply yet. Besides, I went to McDonalds outside NUST Gate 2 today,…

Five good things I did today are:1. Was courteous when disturbed2. Practiced self-discipline3. Wrote this entry4. Xworked on Coursera thingie5. Decided to take the…

The guy who was supposed to edit our documentary is not doing so. Half the payment has been made. 28 is the deadline as…

Hy, today’s Saturday. Here are the five good things I did on this day: 1. Took a bath when I didn’t want to2. Worked…