Awais, but online.

Diary of a Senseless Wanderer

quick note

Posts are not chronologically arranged. After being able to understand and afford a domain, I salvage(d) the posts from Social media, Paperback, Blogger and Wattpad. So you will see older posts up top and newer down below. Sorry.

  • 04.30.23

    Okayish day. Some good things I did were:1. Was honest to SO despite a standoff from her end, risking everything2. Was honest with Mom…

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    For Ticktick Support:

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  • 12.16.24

    138pmI really should sleep but people on reddit keep texting!

  • 12.15.24

    1046amMom’s coming back today from the funeral of the cousin. I will go get her in an hour or less. And I just woke…

  • 12.14.24

    1214pmWoke up about an hour ago, by the kidlet#2. She said to warm her food because the kidlet#1 had strictly told her not to…

  • 12.13.24

    255pmHy Tess, How are you! From diary in the Cadet College, to Instagram, to Website. How’s the journey been! Oh you want me to…

  • 12.12.24

    555amJust another Thursday. 1219pmWoke up around 1130pm but got up from bed now. Got up like, got straight up, sat and started the PC.…

  • 12.11.24

    832amJust woke up and started the pc to write this. I am wearing 4 pieces of upperwear, 2 of them made to wear only…

  • 12.10.24

    705amSo here’s the deal. I have lost my CNIC gentelman and good ladies! So … now today after the HBL bank, I will go…

  • 12.09.24

    126am the next dayVery Sleepy. Really Dreamy Right 2.

  • 12.08.24

    756pmJust stopped after 30mins of a lesson for a thing I am learning using ChatGPT. And RDR2 is pending, in the background, for 3…

  • 12.07.24

    349pmSaturday. Woke up at 1248pm. Like the late winter sunshine, I rose from the East slowly, weakly, trying my best to warm the world.…

  • 12.06.24

    101pmWell, this is it no? I woke up today, at 12pm which is quite early because I slept at like 9am but idk how…

  • 12.05.24

    1137amReturned from the bank about 2 hours ago. Then had to go take the kidling home early on short leave. And now, I am…

  • 12.04.24

    Well, this is good huh. I ranted and ranted and ranted yesterday and today was slightly better. Slightly, and not the slightly you use…

  • 12.03.24

    Well, something major is going to happen. Idk what it is. And I moved my system from table to ground in the interest of…

  • 11.28.24

    430AMSorry to the crowd looking to read daily posts, I have unfortunately been fortunate enough to not be so busy, that at the end…

  • 11.25.24

    631amMonday again.

  • 11.24.24

    538AMWell, it was called lappy. Lappy. Let me bring the lappy. Lappy doosre kmre me he. Would you bring the lappy back? Here, lappy…

  • 11.23.24

    827pmOi I am scared of getting bored! In 3 hours, I have to meet an AR guy who we need for his accent and…

  • 11.20.24

    508pmjThe past 24 hours have been consistently downhill. But I am not done yet. I am at zero energy. Zero motivation to work and…

  • 11.18.24

    Nothing.

  • 11.17.24

    Today was sunday. It went away without me doing anything other than a party meeting. And let’s not … emotionalize it. Let’s take a…

  • 11.15.24

    359amWell .. hy! Start of a new friday. Fucking hell man, its like secs when it was Monday. Idk, time flies!

  • 11.14.24

    313amNow, this is fantastic eh? Having games. And no time to play them. Is this the next few years of life? Not impressed! 357am…

  • 11.11.24

    157pmStarting the day. Not feeling good. Bye. 1208am the next dayWell, a bit good. I traded a bit today. First day lol. Scalping on…

  • 11.10.24

    1233amYep. Still Awais. About 30 fucking years left unless something shuts me down early. Hope its not too much pain.

  • 11.09.24

    523PmThe kid of a relative is coming. Now, why? I don’t really understand. Its a stupid city, same unplanned streets, bad roads, occasional water…

  • 11.08.24

    1amGoing good. Except for the fact that I fought, yesterday, with someone important. Someone who is my only reader. So yeah, that’s bad. But…

  • 11.05.24

    122pmToday I woke up around 11am. Took my time getting out of bed because the past few days haven’t been good so I wanted…

  • 11.04.24

    1234pmSomething’s impacting my state of mind since last night and I need to figure out why before it … forces me to implode, or…

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  • 11.02.24

    10amSo .. I just happened to stroll to fees structure pages of programs for my sister’s next year university. NUST costs about 25lac in…

  • 11.01.24

    433PMLike I do with my dad and some other guys who I know, there must be someone out there who thinks “Let him blabber…

  • 10.29.24

    1250amOne habit reeboted. I am sick for the past 11/12 days. Weird because it is not much and .. I have not been sick…

  • 10.19.24

    1236amShe said it won’t hurt. It is hurting till now, the tootache. And the next appointment is next week. My cousin’s marriage is next…

  • 10.18.24

    246amRound 2 of getting my teeth fixed coming up after 5 hours in Fauji Foundation Hospital.

  • 10.16.24

    837amI am down with fever. Have been for the last 24 hours or so. My mom, kids, and bndi knows it. I have been…

  • 10.15.24

    417amHello g. How are you! 604amWell, I should be sleeping rn. But neend ka pattern itna disturb ho gya he due to night job…

  • 10.12.24

    514amHello! 708pmWoke up about 1 hour ago. Took mom back from the doctor. He says everything’s fine but your weight which is a classic…

  • 10.11.24

    511amHmmThe moment I stop fearing, the thing I fear will happen. Then I will get to face my fear. But who wants to face…

  • 10.10.24

    738amI am still awake. Will sleep in an hour or so.

  • 10.09.24

    238amToday is Wednesday, the most busy day in my job. I am more busy on Wednesday than on Monday lol! 404amSomething good is happening,…

  • 10.08.24

    350amI just finished yesterday. Now going to eat French Toast, and then sleep around 6am. 606pmSubmitted 14K for education, 2K for a threeshoo for…

  • 10.07.24

    537pmThe day is going the opposite of yesterday. I did nothing yesterday and even with some hurdles today till now, I have managed to…

  • 10.06.24

    745pmSetting: Sitting in a place where I only could have imagined to sit a year ago, I waste my time. More time. Time, that…

  • 10.05.24

    Roll the dice, give me the penFor now I’ll write my owneth zen Hy everybody, audience of zero. How are you! Today’s Saturday. Wohooo…

  • 10.04.24

    249amI am happy, you are sadI am good but you are badHead of a bird is golden cladHe is a human so he’s gone…

  • 10.03.24

    418pmehm..ehmm..hy! 249am the next day: Well, bye. Another one gone.

  • 10.02.24

    0318amI am going to sleep in a few hours. Will wake up at about noon, say 1 or 2 pm. I’ve got a lot…

  • 09.27.24

    0439pmI am happy with my life. Ab aye jo azab aye! 0512pmDoes it ever get better than this? No one to care for. A…

  • 09.25.24

    630amYar gari vale uncle boht tng kr rhe hen. So I have decide that I will take the kiddos to school and take them…

  • 09.24.24

    255pmWell, yesterday, and through to today, this diary got me in trouble. Someone said either you explain why you wrote this this and this…

  • 09.23.24

    431amDad’s coming. I am going to move out of this rented home in 20 days or so. I like my job. I like my…

  • 09.19.24

    403amYesterday I blocked someone. Today I unblocked them. The talk after the block, I tell you! If you are bored with someone’s company, just…

  • 09.17.2024

    417amHelio! Barack is presidentParkour 512pmJust returned from Grocery shopping. Every time I have to pay taxes to this incompetent government, I have to suffer…

  • 09.16.24

    250pmSo .. this was perhaps the largest time I missed in the diary since I started this here on the website. I am sorry…

  • 09.10.24

    338am50mins till RDR2 downloads 😭

  • 09.09.24

    0347pmSo yesterday I bought a PC. Today I am trying to install the game I want to play on it. Its RDR2. It will…

  • 09.06.24

    320pmI haven’t been quite myself recently. I missed two days of making my bed which is the very bare minimum I do as a…

  • 09.04.24

    106amGot a good news today so I am happy. I will also start the dental surgery thingie from this coming Saturday. It will take…

  • 09.02.24

    1201am 301pmI am done. Literally. 24K fucking fees for admission in 4th class. Ajeeb chu*** hen yar! BTW Army bombed a Balochi village today…

  • 08.31.24

    0457amNow I kinda make these new entries immediately after making the new page for today’s general b/c muje pta he, bad me time mile,…

  • 08.30.24

    342pmI am finding the daily planning and making bed habits slip away and away 😞

  • 08.29.24

    535amStill up and working, alhamdulillah 526pmWorking 117am the next dayNope. Still working

  • 08.28.24

  • 08.27.24

    0124pmJust woke up. Gonna work now!

  • 08.26.24

    127amarz kya he! pagl se hue jata ho faraz, us se mile kya?itni si khushi se koi mr b nahi jata! 209pmJust got to…

  • 08.25.24

    108amHelio!s 314pmAek uncle ko abhi rukhst kr k a rha hun. Tess tell me one thing, why do peope, known as rishtedar, just consider…

  • 08.24.24

    0358amJust planned tomorrow and got a bit free from today. 0806pmJust finished making a new blogpost. Not done yet lol.

  • 08.23.24

    334amGot early release today. Gonna sleep, if boss doesn’t reply in next 10 mins. 948pmHard day. What if I leave my family and go…

  • 08.22.24

    353pmShould we respect our dads even if it breaks your mental health? Or am I snowflake? If you were a dad, would you rub…

  • 08.21.24

    406amJust the time.

  • 08.20.24

    I can’t write the stuff I want to write. Or I will become a fodder for mob lynchings. Or I need to move out…

  • 08.19.24

    1012am“Tum peshawar qatil ho, Sipahi nahi!“Ahmad Faraz. 1241pmI feel different. Maybe its food poisoning or the fact that I did not do a breakfast.…

  • 08.17.24

    523amToo tired. Why? Read the last post. 314pmJust woke up from sleep. Called mom to see where she was, she went to the hospital…

  • 08.16.24

    435pmWoke up around 2pm after sleeping at around 6am. Curled and furled in bed for 30ish mins. Read this DAWN article in bed. Then…

  • 08.15.24

    412amThat’s the diary today. Time. Its 412am. Why do you return daily to read this BS lol? Or kam ni he krne ko! Go!

  • 08.14.24

    Aj 14 August he. Mulk ko aag lgao, Pese chaye yar. Jo seedhi bat he. London me flat lene ka ilzam hona chaye. Vancouver…

  • 08.13.24

    255amOkay. Published the old diary. Budgeted today. Now gonna plan tomorrow and sleepo sleepo. Maybe after one game of CSGO. 216pmCSGO needed to be…

  • 08.12.24

    250am of 08.13.24Did not write any diary today.

  • 08.11.24

    332amI am either in for a huge goody goody moneywise or a huge downfall. And I am not falling!

  • 08.10.24

    511amWell, its morning. I have to sleep. Go into my cocoon yet to emerge metamorphless, tomorrow! 222pmEverything in the world is about sex except…

  • 08.09.24

    129amGoing to have a meeting with boss. 234pmJust woke up, properly. I did wake up at 1pm too but then used the bathroom and…

  • 08.08.24

    1219pmGonna eat lunch and then start the day. 915pmWell .. ughh? 125am Next DayWell, just returned home. Boss had a successful meeting with a…

  • 08.07.24

    1010amGonna do the routine task of wednesday for our client, now. Just woke up. Its raining.

  • 08.06.24

    305pmI have decided to add a daily self-ranking thing to this diary. Hope I can continue and if I can’t, I will restart with…

  • 08.05.24

    918pmWell, dental pain. I just came from home to McDonalds and will eat something here that is bound to worsen my pain 😲

  • 08.03.24

    354pmIn McDonalds. Yesterday my littlest sister turned 12. I was busy in work today so could not do anything besides a cake. Today I…

  • 08.02.24

    aek junbsh-e-qalam ki mar hun me 🙂 Just wanted to write and affirm that here. Its been a few busy days, as usual. This…

  • 07.28.24

    355pmJust deleted a poem because if it was published, it would be fodder for a mob lynch waiting to happen. I hate life rn.…

  • 07.26.24

    206pmI am doing the routine task for job. I feel like I am becoming a burden on the startup and its taxxing me, a…

  • 07.25.24

    112pmMy belly hurts, the inside of it. What the scientists call the stomach, that thing. Or it could be intestines, the colon, the pancreas…

  • 07.24.24

    abhi tlk to na kundan hue na rakh huehm apni aag me hr roz jl k dekhte hen! ye b kia km he k…