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Well, today was okayish until I saw her! Like seriously, it was going well. I had an unexpected meeting with Kashif who by the way, is enjoying the yellow journalism, the usual. I don’t want to pin any hopes, but this guy could possibly be an MDF before I leave NUST. Anyways, I saw her.…

Today was good. As in I woke up late but 30 minutes later, I was at job and that is good, being punctual. I had a deep talk with Kashif today too, where I realised how slowly, our friendship had become only a part and parcel of party’s interactions and how we lost, as he…

So, today was okay. In fact, it was slightly more than okay in the sense that it started with another cold shower! I love the fact that I can expose my body to its limits in the morning and somehow, like it too. I am strengthened. I went to Kashif today but it did not…

Today, for the first time, someone close was harassed. The guy is a rich person from our colony. He might like cleanliness and education and maybe, loyalty, but he is a scumbag for me nonetheless. What worries me is the mere fact that I did interact with people from the opposite gender in my life…

Good things are becoming more frequent and bad things are becoming less and less, both in frequency and intensity. I love this transformation. Today, I will just write some things that invoke positivity in me: 1. I recanted over an instantaneous decision (to buy a flip phone)2. I returned back to the dumbphone a few…

Well, today was good as well. I’m not particularly eager to document my day. I don’t want to write here but, as soon as I do, more often than not, I end up writing more than expected. Anyways, the following are the five good things that happened today:1. I took a cold shower even though…

Yesterday I missed out on reviewing, budgeting and planning my day. Now, however, I am back. Tomorrow, I will get up to bathe once again, as I am not letting go of that sense of accomplishment which comes with showering with cold water, first thing in the morning. Furthermore, I am noticing precarious behavior in…

Yesterday, I again missed writing this. This inconsistent behavior won’t be tolerated, Awais! Consider this a warning buddy boy. The five good things of today were:1. Deciding to have an informal meeting with Kashif2. Deciding and being fun at the late lunch with the UP group after SCC and Working Meet3. Not thinking too much…

The five good things about today are as follows:1. I did more than the normal amount of time on Figma practice2. I texted Kashif even though I had already done a mulaqat of the day3. I had a cold shower even though I did not want to, at the start. And for full 10 minutes…

Today was okayish. Here are five good things I did today:1. I started my day with a difficult task, and got it thoroughly done2. I catered to mom’s complaint about me not buying new shoes, logically3. I tried to get Kashif out by going to his hostel room4. I went to library between the break…

Today was good. As in, I managed to attend class, go to my job in proper items of clothing and work all the way to inbox zero in Google Cal. Here are five good things I did today: 1. Woke up from bed and started to work right on it2. Did minimal breakfast when I…

Today was good and here are the 5 things I am proud of today:1. Going to library and working there on a Saturday2. Going to attend DF at EME3. Texting a difficult message to Kashif4. Posting the longgggg post to Instagram5. Being patient in my relationship

Today was hell of a day man. Here are however 5 things that went good, today:1. I went to the library, twice totalling 5 hours of work on a Sunday2. I decided to reward myself after completing GoP figma screens3. I got up from bed soon after waking up when there was no immediate need…

Today was fucking shitty because we are fighting. I feel so bad. I feel so fucking bad. Kashif se b aj mulaqat he.

Hy Tess, Today was fine! And yes, I wrote this on website again. Why? I will be sure to share if I am consistent in it (40 days) I am listening to a sad hindi song, just feeding and feeling the heartbreak slowly. Weirdly, I guess we like sadness too. The slow one to be…

1216pmI made another diary and discontinued this one. Too many people who know me in real life know this diary and so … I can’t say everything I think on this platform anymore. Have a good rest of the life! Bye.

245pmI am a forgetful person Tess. Like right now, after spending an amazing productive weekend, I was feeling irritated in home so I came here to the library to work, a change of scenery. And forgot to bring my headphone’s mic which I remove generally to ensure it does not get bad as I game…

I am feeling extremely angry. Because the NUST HBL bank was lousy as fuck and the fees issue of March 2023 was more than lousy as fuck. They first mistakenly added arrears which is pretty stupid for a “smart university”. Then when they gave me a renewed fees bill, they did not update the bill…

The one with the opening There is an opening .. in my teeth. It’s been 10 years, baba khte the beta, brush krlo. Ni to kl ko pain hoga. Its an opening of this pain, now. A week has passed and still, the toothache is not going away. The doctor says it will cost about…

I just realized that now, I’m more independent than before. I can simply take a job, work, come home and there’s no one to tell me to be close to Allah by praying, not waste time in designing because it’s not related to my degree, not eat ice cream when I am cold, not join…

These are some of the good things I did today:I went to study circle class even though I had planned not to, earlier in the weekendI send\t a clear message to embrace me not working as much for the party as I used to, myself.I conducted my first Study Circle Class, an experience worth learning…

Obsidian. ClickUp. Sidekick. Linux OS. Google Suite. Todoist. Notion. Evernote. GTD. Pomodoro. Time Blocks. Atomic Habits. Atomic improvements. Vivaldi. Ye kr ra Hun bkchodi 🤕😂 I am so big on productivity enthusiasm. Today when I started to refine my Fiverr description, all in the name of bare bones truth that I could manage was “I…

Five good things I did today are:1. Intentionally having a nice morning call back home2. Deciding to buy a 2nd lunch (versus saving) because I was still hungry3. Pushing more than normal to complete my daily task4. Saying sorry for when I snapped today at her for the sudden hijab5. Taking a shower when I…

Hy Tess. I don’t think I’ll get up today when though one part of me really really wants to go to library. There’s a ton of small work left over the past weeks and today’s unexpected holiday from job is an ideal way to complete that. Or the other side laying on my bed right…

These are the five good things I did today, Tess:1. Even though I did not want to, I studied some academics in the office2. I travelled all the way back to NUST in the rain because it was necessary3. I communicated with Fazal and positively convinces him to join today’s DF4. I dealt with a…

Bnana thaTujhe apnaSulana thaRulana thaTeri ankhon me hole seTera hi ghr bsana tha Kmana tha, Urana thaTujhi p sb lutana thaMohabbat g? Fsana thaMuje ghr ja k Ammi koTeri khatir manana thaTujhe phir a btana tha Hmari hi zra, Kuch KuchKahani thi, Noorani thiAkheer vqt andhere meNokar tha or Rani thiZra dheeme, zra holeK ankh…

Kabhi jo ankh khulti thiKoi ghm na hota thaRubber vali nayi pencilYhi me khaab prota tha! S3h. NUST. These words will always hold a special place in the rest of my life, Tess. Like GCCK does. GCCK was a trauma when I did not know the word Trauma. NUST, a trauma I knew I was…

Roz vhan beth k aek lrkaNeeche dekh kuch likhta thaKsi k ane ka manzarJhooti ankhon me bunta thaHsta Khudi, khud ko pagl bna kHsta logon ko acha lgta thaKhud k andr aek Beyqeeni lyeAdhe khabon ki puri dunya meSanam ko khuda smjh betha tha Jis k hathon me ab vo hath dalti hogiMuskrati hogi, Dil…

You stop caring. That’s what I realize nowadays as I grow … up! I am NOT growing old :suppressedsmiles Now I send that weird sticker in the official whatsapp groups and .. don’t care if anyone will likes it or judge me. If I am lying to not do something because I know you won’t…

Today’s heavy Tess. I am not feeling well since the morning, headache. Something’s pushed me down from the moment I got up from bed. It’s still here. It’s 0817pm. Maybe it’s the fact that I am going home tomorrow. Or maybe it’s that I watched my pay disappear today, as soon as it came. I…

Ghr ja rha Hun. Five good things I did today are: 1. Took a risk to not book another indriver, when the first accidentally cancelled. Booking another one would have forced me to leave at least one hanging2. Repacked stuff, to ensure everything was in place3. Tried and mitigated a potential conflict4. Got up earlier…

I’ve never been an obedient child. Running away from home, to openly criticize anything I see happening at home that I did not like, I rarely stopped myself from expressing dissent because … it’s my home. Everyone’s got parents. So the story, in some unique way, perhaps happens in everyone’s home. But since a year…

404amHy Tess! Its early morning but if you think from a normal man’s POV its sleep sleep time for me. I can’t do so because I have to go to Dentist tomorrow. And .. it does not feel good. Bye.

457pmGot up at 1130amish and started working. Had two calls till now, with coworkers. My mom rescued a cat in the morning apparently, the kids told me all about it when I exited the room to get breakfast. On the contrast, she also said don’t let it in your room or in any room for…

206pm3 hours of Wireframing and prototyping ended just now. I am a bit concerned because I planned to make a new screen this time but … unfortunately, it was not possible. The old screen I thought is finished, and had added some comments to “fix this stuff later” got hold of me. And I begin…

704pmI am happy. Rare. Let the world burn. Hath sekenge hveli k bahr gli me rat 2 bje, dunya jla k. Because I am … Why? You ask! Because I was able to work. And learn. I learnt how quick I can make a filter pill in figma. I loved it, and this warm fuzzy…

134pmJust came back from a breakfast from outside. Cost: 720PKR. I never thought I would be the one to “choose healthy” but one, it costs less than McDonalds while being at the same distance, and two, it is actually healthy. Three they have an option to sit outside while eating in their lawnish type area,…

257pmI haven’t written anything down for the last 7 days ig. This was due to a couple of reasons Tess, one being I have been trying to work more and that obviously takes willpower, a limited asset. The willpower used to maintain this diary was being used there but now that I have (ig) established…

Five good things I i did today are:1. I did not go to the party meeting because I had a fever.2. I ate as much as I planned while eating in fever is ducking difficult, in mess. Ghr hota to Kya hi bat thi 😅3. None4. None5. NoneI had a thought today. It’s useful for…

Five good things I did today are:1. lksfjasdfjweiofjsdljflsjflsdjlsd2. Spent money on a fruit shake3. Said sorry to someone I could have not, and gotten away with it4. Went to the library and worked as planned5. Decided to work a little, unplanned

Five good things I did today are:1. Udjsuxskdkdifhekosidbsskjs Today, I want to write openly so, if someone needs to stay away from negative writing, this is a disclaimer. I spend too much time and energy and thoughts into “if” I should buy that roll or not? “If” I should buy that bottle of Pepsi or…

Again, I won’t advice you to read this. NSFW as well. Here, today, is just an average day. Peaceless night, Dreamless day. Kuch nya ni, Kuch alag ni. Vohi uljhn. Bgher kuch kye, zindagi ki thkn. Mot b aesi raht he. And I think we all have a right to be angry on the situation…

Hy Tess. I wrote yesterday. And of the day before that as well but both were too dark to post online. Ya in logon ki namaz rhni thi, ya Khuda ka nazrya. Islye rhne dya. Ghreebon k pas Khuda hi hota he, use b cheen lun to…muje Dr lgta he. Things are not going good.…

Yar, copied line he. Once upon a long time ago, dunya bni thi. Acha ni hua, shi bat he. Acha vaqyie ni hua. Five good things I did today are Kuch b ni. Not. One. I went to job. I attended a class. Basketball khelne gya to basketball court hi bnd thi. Party ki fund…

Hy Tess. I’m tired. Abhi library se Aya Hun, and the work I went to finish there is still even more .. raita. This is not going to be … okay. So I’m just going to upload this one as a story. Permanently feed me nzr ni ana chaye. There are swear words in it.…

Hy Tess. It’s me. Here are the five good things I did today: 1. Jfidowisvsoabgsaohsisos2. Staying in library for 6 hours to work on a Sunday3. Was harsh where I needed to be harsh

Hy Tess, hy. I’m gonna pretend like nothing happened the previous few days and just .. write about today. Backlog burden boht hota he Yar so, let’s just focus on today. Anyways, I am about 40% done with revamping AwaisAlam.com. Finally, I can use Obsidian and publish too, for free. Vese Obsidian Publish costs about…

Hy Tess. It’s me, Awais. I just returned from the study circle class and it was one of those content-packed class! This fortnight’s topic was Shah Waliullah ka Falsafa. Topic hi Falsafa tha. Normally it is restricted to speak or discuss too much of philosophy. This instills susti and negates action. Bnda char nam or…

Rector Sab ki trf aj dinner tha. Compulsory. Mtlb hostel me Khana diya hi ni, agr dinner krna he to aj Rector ki trf hi chlna hoga. NUST aek educational institute smjh k aye the, peshavr qatlon ki jageer nikli he. Vo roti rok ki jis k hr bcha hr mheene 10,000 b deta he!…