Diary of a Senseless Wanderer

852pmWell, hy! I am back lol. Hardly away, a day skipped? Idk, and it does not really matter, does it? Time, slow, day by day, minute by minute, we barely notice it. Even an year goes by without much notice but 3-5 years is when it starts making a distinct different. Atleast for me, Tess.…

Hy everyone. What chaos are you guys in nowadays? I’m making a website for hudistic. And I can’t figure out what design/layout I want! A virtual 3d store where you can walk and select and view items is both new, and cool. You feel as if walking in a game. A virtual shopping mall. When…

Today was well .. 9/10! Unlike the day before yesterday when it was 10/10, today I was free and bored mostly so I … got lost into memories again and again. I’m recovering marvelously still. So till Zuhr, I literally couldn’t do or say or even think anything properly. The brain me as if occupied…

07:27 am It’s 0727. I’m feeling very tired this morning. All these memories clouding my head. As much as I try to oppress and pray and hope I’ll never remember who did what .. I’m a human being. Can’t keep them out for much! It’s so torturing and painful. 12:34 Pm My first class just…

Starting right off, first of all, I was deeepressed the whole day. But then I got so happy, how? That’s not the story! You know whenever I go for a walk these evenings, I want to like .. stroll and roam around freely. Have you ever felt anything like that? Like I have my headphones…

Hy…how are you. So It’s the 3rd time I have deleted Snapchat in 2 years. Here’s the story of how, for each time. The first time when Covid 19 was raging full fledge in the cities of Pakistan and I was lurking nearby, through the muddy fields of central Punjab without telling my family lol.…

Nothing special. I’m going to resume cutting myself, starting just about now. I don’t know of the future, nor do I give a fuck about it, I just want to be able to get rid of these voices in my head, and sleep peacefully. Bbye.

08:46 am Well this is good. I can’t believe I did it again! My laptop was getting slow so .. over the past few days it was lagging a lil. And I was frustrated because for months I had saved money and finally got this upgraded laptop with like amazing specs, just last month. It…

10:32am I am in the central library. In total in Nust, we have like >10 libraries and this one, the Central library, is the biggest of them all. It’s huge. So many books and so many wonderful stories and lessons in each book. It’s a shame then how we still choose to learn lessons the…

Today is the start of October. Autumn is setting in … I remember back in the autumn of 2020, I wrote a poem on some month. I can’t remember which specifically. It was autumn anyways. Now it’s autumn again and life is playing out strange cards. Snatching what was loved to create an emotion of…

1823 Today was … good? A little tiring but good. I got to do some never-done-before things, so I am happy. In the morning when I woke up though, it was seriously smuggy conditions for me .. Slept late last night. Missed breakfast. Lunch was not what I can eat too so missed that. Then…

04: 42 pm I was just returning from Asr prayer, when this guy I know living on my floor catches up with from behind, nudges me to a stop, and holds out a hangar, saying with quite nervousness, “Oye sun, ye shirt “gay” to nhi lg rhi”… I’m trying to suppress my smile. Actually his…

02:23 pm I was sitting in mess just now, eating lentils with a spoon, when I noticed a commotion around me. I was right on the corner of the long table. Looking up, at the head table right beside me, what I see is a military-type-person, retired yet promoted now to a civilian officer post,…

Today was Saturday. Boring. A lil productive and well, a lot more boring. Woke up. Prayed. Slept. Woke up Breakfasted. Slept. Woke up. Prayed. Slept. Woke up. Prayed. Slept. Woke up late. Prayed by myself. Wrote this down. One more prayer and then we’ll move to Sunday. Which, as it happens, is gonna be as…

Today was kinda emotional. I was going to the mosque, when I noticed, in the protocol avenue, there was a black civic parked, green number plate. There were 5 people on the footpath besides that car, standing in the shades of the trees. They were I guess having an out-of-office, informal meeting. One other guy…

Well….I’m writing this while sitting inside my class with no headphones on. Sir is not here and we have a quiz today. I am trying to just sit without putting music on .. I’m just sitting here rn. It is exhausting. So many people are talking, so many conversations happening, so many tones, exciting, overlapping…

What is it about people who call you, and when you cut their call to call back yourself, they “aren’t available”? What is it like you have your SIM installed in a public phone or something? Or is it in Joey’s (F.R.I.E.N.D.S) new apartment’s bathroom phone? I called you literally moments after you did, and…

I woke up 20 mins before breakfast timing closed today. Missed fajar! Opened eyes to see 0910 on clock. Well, I washed my face and combed and packed the bag and changed into something wearable outside and ate Naan Channe, and travelled to class, all in 20 minutes. Felt like a cadet for a brief…

So today I went to class too early. Woke up at 0942. Didn’t remember class starts at 2pm, so I was there in NLE lab at 1000. (NLE lab is quite an extravagant lab in S3H, NUST, where there are like 50 MACs placed for students) About 20 minutes later when there came no other…

Hy…wassup? .. well it rained today. A lot. Like at 4pm, it looked like 7pm, no Sun or anything, all hail and thunderstorm. I walked in the rain. And then I splashed and jumped in the ankle-deep rainwater too. No matter how much I wish to end it from my mind, I’ll have to say…