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417amHello g. How are you! 604amWell, I should be sleeping rn. But neend ka pattern itna disturb ho gya he due to night job for the last 2 years that .. I can’t sleep until 8am. And can’t wakeup until say, 4pm. I am down with fever. Happens every six months. So yeah, that’s that.…

514amHello! 708pmWoke up about 1 hour ago. Took mom back from the doctor. He says everything’s fine but your weight which is a classic middle class eastern moms problem. I wish I could buy a treadmill for her (because I know I can force her to use it) but its like 63K minimum. So that’s…

738amI am still awake. Will sleep in an hour or so.

238amToday is Wednesday, the most busy day in my job. I am more busy on Wednesday than on Monday lol! 404amSomething good is happening, internally. I don’t want to jinx it. I like me. Bye.

350amI just finished yesterday. Now going to eat French Toast, and then sleep around 6am. 606pmSubmitted 14K for education, 2K for a threeshoo for the pc and another misc hardware. Why the fuck is Islamabad so expensive? Sorry, Pindi, I don’t even live in Isamabad lol! I earn like a good amount of money. But…

537pmThe day is going the opposite of yesterday. I did nothing yesterday and even with some hurdles today till now, I have managed to stay on track! 1249am the next dayYep, it went good. It is still going though, I wish it ends now. I am tired. But hy, gotta work to feed a brass…

745pmSetting: Sitting in a place where I only could have imagined to sit a year ago, I waste my time. More time. Time, that is the essence of life, I waste it, let it pour out of my grasp like its nothing Voice in my head: Well, why don’t you go back to your room…

Roll the dice, give me the penFor now I’ll write my owneth zen Hy everybody, audience of zero. How are you! Today’s Saturday. Wohooo but no, I have got some papers to study on how to do a modern user’s behavioral analysis properly and how to launch on AppSumo properly. Yeah, I am a fucking…

249amI am happy, you are sadI am good but you are badHead of a bird is golden cladHe is a human so he’s gone mad Time passes, Head now greyBirdie’s head’s in the golden trayMighty shout is now a preyAnother led by times, astray Death for him now, silentlyJerks his head but, diligentlyPretending to work,…

418pmehm..ehmm..hy! 249am the next day: Well, bye. Another one gone.

0318amI am going to sleep in a few hours. Will wake up at about noon, say 1 or 2 pm. I’ve got a lot of stuff to do already. Today was ookayish. I mean I had some really difficult times today, especially with the family, but that’s what happens when you’re the biggest brother, right?…

0439pmI am happy with my life. Ab aye jo azab aye! 0512pmDoes it ever get better than this? No one to care for. A job that pays enough to live in the capital with my family, AND gives challenges to keep me mind munching for hours, daily. A family balances just right to fear and…

630amYar gari vale uncle boht tng kr rhe hen. So I have decide that I will take the kiddos to school and take them back meself. Will save money and all. 804pmWell, just left my mom to cry in the Kitchen because she was beating the sisters b/c they were eating Daily Milk. She says…

255pmWell, yesterday, and through to today, this diary got me in trouble. Someone said either you explain why you wrote this this and this or you delete those posts. I will explain in a call today. I guess it was inevitable. It is inevitable. I write online because the feeling, the chance that someone else…

431amDad’s coming. I am going to move out of this rented home in 20 days or so. I like my job. I like my routine. And I like the fact that I haven’t bought wireless headphones after giving the existing ones to my sister about a month ago. I also like that its been 2…

403amYesterday I blocked someone. Today I unblocked them. The talk after the block, I tell you! If you are bored with someone’s company, just block them. When you unblock, its going to be a different sensation, take that science!

417amHelio! Barack is presidentParkour 512pmJust returned from Grocery shopping. Every time I have to pay taxes to this incompetent government, I have to suffer lol. These guys!

250pmSo .. this was perhaps the largest time I missed in the diary since I started this here on the website. I am sorry to myself for that! \ RDR2 is like 25% done. Now I am getting bored of it lol. Here’s material for a psychological PhD student. Why would a person so enthusiastically…

338am50mins till RDR2 downloads 😭

0347pmSo yesterday I bought a PC. Today I am trying to install the game I want to play on it. Its RDR2. It will finish downloading around the same time as my job will end today so … will play at night/morning. One thing I just freaking realized with this is that I need a…

320pmI haven’t been quite myself recently. I missed two days of making my bed which is the very bare minimum I do as a routine to keep myself motivated and sane but since this week started, I have been kind of low. Just waking up, working and then watching a season to sleep. I have…

106amGot a good news today so I am happy. I will also start the dental surgery thingie from this coming Saturday. It will take about 6 months to be done fully but hy, let’s do it eh. A start is an indicator of the end coming in. I am happy.

1201am 301pmI am done. Literally. 24K fucking fees for admission in 4th class. Ajeeb chu*** hen yar! BTW Army bombed a Balochi village today but no one talked about it. Mainstream media p aya hi ni. This is how terrorists are made, intentionally, by the state. Kl ki inko fikr ni q k inhki zindgi…

0457amNow I kinda make these new entries immediately after making the new page for today’s general b/c muje pta he, bad me time mile, na mile!

342pmI am finding the daily planning and making bed habits slip away and away 😞

535amStill up and working, alhamdulillah 526pmWorking 117am the next dayNope. Still working

127amarz kya he! pagl se hue jata ho faraz, us se mile kya?itni si khushi se koi mr b nahi jata! 209pmJust got to the Nust University Library to begin my day of work. I still kept thinking last night and over to today if I m a failure. I have been binge-watching Prison Break…

108amHelio!s 314pmAek uncle ko abhi rukhst kr k a rha hun. Tess tell me one thing, why do peope, known as rishtedar, just consider it their duty to hurt you in any possible way they can? Seht theek ni he? They have got limericks. Finances theek ni he? They have got fzool suggestions (like bribes…

0358amJust planned tomorrow and got a bit free from today. 0806pmJust finished making a new blogpost. Not done yet lol.

334amGot early release today. Gonna sleep, if boss doesn’t reply in next 10 mins. 948pmHard day. What if I leave my family and go live in a village far off in a mountain and just send them money every month.

353pmShould we respect our dads even if it breaks your mental health? Or am I snowflake? If you were a dad, would you rub your son’s “mistakes” on his face every chance you get? And still get to be respected because you are his father? I won’t. And to make sure of that, I won’t…

406amJust the time.

I can’t write the stuff I want to write. Or I will become a fodder for mob lynchings. Or I need to move out of an extremist society before opening my mouth. What a life I have been blessed with. What a life I should be grateful for. Bye

523amToo tired. Why? Read the last post. 314pmJust woke up from sleep. Called mom to see where she was, she went to the hospital today. And now, I am just … gonna play a game because it is Saturday. Or I might complete that Green boots Everest documentary. Bye! 940pmSitting in a mcdonalds. I am…

435pmWoke up around 2pm after sleeping at around 6am. Curled and furled in bed for 30ish mins. Read this DAWN article in bed. Then woke up like stood up. Quickly added the 17800 yesterday Bill to budget and then ate. Mom was sleeping. I will be honest with you, I am beginning to not get…

412amThat’s the diary today. Time. Its 412am. Why do you return daily to read this BS lol? Or kam ni he krne ko! Go!

Aj 14 August he. Mulk ko aag lgao, Pese chaye yar. Jo seedhi bat he. London me flat lene ka ilzam hona chaye. Vancouver k ksi hotel me beth k apni corruption k qisse prhne hen. Tkht lahore me beth tkhte valon ko khuda ki khushnudi k lye peer chuff chuff k ghle bhrte dekhne…

255amOkay. Published the old diary. Budgeted today. Now gonna plan tomorrow and sleepo sleepo. Maybe after one game of CSGO. 216pmCSGO needed to be downloaded back then so I put it to download, watched this, and slept. Now I am going to play CSGO, most prolly 413amJust spent 20 mins playing CSGO. Then 60 mins…

250am of 08.13.24Did not write any diary today.

332amI am either in for a huge goody goody moneywise or a huge downfall. And I am not falling!

511amWell, its morning. I have to sleep. Go into my cocoon yet to emerge metamorphless, tomorrow! 222pmEverything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.” ― Oscar Wilde 446pmJUST FREAKING IN LOVE WITH THE MCDONALDS AUGUST MARKETING STRATEGY! From 9 August onwards, there’s only Milli Naghme now (National songs) raging on…

129amGoing to have a meeting with boss. 234pmJust woke up, properly. I did wake up at 1pm too but then used the bathroom and went back to sleep. Now, I have a meeting at 3pm. I guess that will happen in home but then I will go to McDonalds because its awfully hot. I am…